I was trying to finish this entry with a long ramble before I posted it but forget it, it's been too long and so many things have changed... it's easier to just start a new entry.

Ok, so now the biggest check I've held in my hands (to deposit) is $3.5 million. (It was a life insurance check though).

I've been crying a lot the last two days because Dante is moving and although I know it's good for me, I will miss him a lot... I also realized just how little I mean to him and that gets me depressed because I have given him everything I could, I sacrificed a lot for him and in many ways I ruined my life for him, and he shows his appreciation by treating me like shit and putting everyone else priority over me.