I was watching Making the Band II (with P. Diddy) this weekend and it just occurred to me how much I admire the people on the show. They have a dream and they do anything they can to achieve it. Maybe I feel this way because I'm frustrated that Dante says he wants to be an actor and I've given him at least 2 big opportunities to personally meet Eileen's clients - a director (at his Christmas party) and a producer (on location for her show) who could actually give him a one in a million chance in show business (who you know is a big part of Hollywood) and he has flaked out of both events. I can't even be mad at him for that because who am I to talk? Back in college, everyone was so motivated to succeed... how did I get stuck where I am now? My dreams just went down the tubes. Don't get me wrong, I love working in the entertainment business but I don't even know what I want to do with my life anymore. I'm going to be a business manager on the path I'm going right now and I do like it but is this what I want to do for the rest of my life? I miss school and I do want to go back, either to law school or business school, but the hard part is to take the first step.