Oh my god. Serenity now, insanity later. So freakin true. Started yesterday. I've reached the breaking point and I pissed off at everyone, everything. Was pissed at Dante yesterday but what else is new? I've been so patient with him, put up with his shit but I reached the breaking point with him yesterday morning. I was yelling at him and after he left, my roommate came out of her room, "Oh my gosh, I've never seen you that mad!" I called the phone company to change the phone number to my apartment cause I was sick of girls calling there for him (for those of you who didn't get the email with the new number, let me know). I was ready to change the locks too but I wanted to make sure it was what I really wanted because I didn't want to change the locks and end up giving him the key again. I also wrote this letter to him just for my sanity. If I wanted to break up with him, that would be the letter I'd give him. I must've cursed every other sentence in that letter. It started with, "It's over. I don't want to talk to you or see you ever again." and I go on telling him about how he's a nobody and he'll always be a nobody with his attitude and work ethic and having people like him in my life only brings ME down. I didn't give it to him though because when I went back to the apartment for lunch, we just talked and we didn't make up but we're at least civil. I'm waiting until I'm ready to get him out of my life fully before I give him some letter like that.

Then I was back at work and Stan was majorly majorly pissing me off. He wanted me to come in last weekend to work and I DID but it wasn't on Saturday like he wanted. Some people have freaking lives dammit and I see his face enough during the week already. I came in Sunday morning did my filing, etc. and I thought I got the job done but I didn't know he wanted me to sort through all the other junk in the office Eileen and I share. The guy who had the job before me made about 10 freakin copies of everything and I know all this junk is extra copies of shit that has been filed already. He told me yesterday he wanted me to come in this Saturday for 5-6 hours and finish the filing. There's NOT 5-6 hours worth of filing here!!! When he told me he wanted me to come in on Saturday he was saying, we gave you the raise because we like you and we want you to stay but we need to get the filing sorted out. I was just thinking, those 2 other companies who wanted to hire me were offering me $6,000 more a year than I'm getting here and I don't have to deal with bullshit panicking over every little thing. I just stayed cause I feel sorry for the guy. I'll probably just stay another year or so anyway. I can't quit right before tax season either cause they'll freak and if they freak already for every little thing, that'll be a major freak session. Mona never panicked, even when she had a defense reply to whatever motion due at 4pm in the courthouse and it was already 3pm and she hadn't started yet.

Today he has me looking for files I've never seen before just because I need to know what these two people did on our client's tour in 2001. I have a list of about 20 people, I found the information on 18 from other sources and he kept insisting I find this one file. After two hours, I find the file and it tells me nothing I don't already know. Oh, the employee's name is listed - what the hell does that do for me, I already know the name! Then when we were looking for that tour file, he finds this other file for a retirement plan tax return from last year. We need to do one for this year but no hurry... and he wants me to find those files too. So I was digging around for the past hour looking for those files. I understand those are my clients and I should know where the files are but am I responsible for people taking files from me or not putting them in the right place afterwards? I can't check everyone's work! Most of the files we're missing are sitting on the floor in Stan's office anyway. And if he hired some competent assistants for us, we wouldn't have this damn problem! I didn't even think of asking the assistant where these investment files were (she's the one who does the filing for the investment statements) because she wouldn't know! I ask her to do the simplest shit and I spend so much time explaining stuff to her I might as well have done it myself. Ugh!! It's just one of those weeks.

I did a buttload of laundry last night. Missed the Teen Choice Awards, Big Brother and Making the Band II. This is why I need TiVO!! I always forget when the shows I want to watch are on, especially Sex and the City. Every Sunday night at 11:00p, I think - oh shit! I forgot about Sex and the City again! I made sure I watched The Tonight Show last night too and I already knew it would be a good show but to have a segment with Ross the Intern (he's so flaming gay its funny) just made it so much better.

Ah-nold!!

I'll spare you all those dumb headlines I've seen lately. Give the man a chance - California is f---ed up already anyway. Ronald Reagan did as awesome job as governor of California and I don't think Jesse Ventura messed up Minnesota that bad during his term... not as badly as Gray Davis f---ed up California, anyway. Arnold did a good job in the last elections with his after school program thing.

I was wondering why Richard Riordan wasn't the Republican candidate for the elections last year and one of my friends from high school told me that the Davis campaign threw lots of money to Bill Simon in the primaries. When Arnold was thinking of running last time, the Davis campaign leaked some stories to the newspapers alleging Arnold had some extramarital affairs. Get ready for some dirty campaigning... The man should spend less time trying to save his job and more time doing his job! Besides, Democrats should have nothing to say about womanizing... *ahem* Clinton??

My old boss Mona, Ms. #1 Democrat, was at Gray Davis's inauguration ceremony when he was first elected governor. Now she hates the man. And what happened to that thing about Democrats sticking behind their man and not putting up another candidate? They can't say that the Republicans are trying to steal the office because other prominent Democrats (the real politicians, not Larry Flynt, Gary Coleman) are running now too.

If Arnold wins, I'm going back to school - a California public university - to get my MBA or whatever. "Lucy, why did you get your MBA?" "Because I wanted Arnold's signature on my degree." I finally bought a frame for my UCLA degree - one of those floating frames - and it has Gray Davis's signature on it. The only way to distinguish my degree from any other UC is Albert Carnesale's signature. Otherwise, coulda gone anywhere else and gotten the same looking degree (not to be elitist or anything, I just love UCLA and I worked hard for the BA).

I took a 2 hour nap tonight and I can't sleep right now so I've been watching a bunch of TV (yeah, whats new right?) I was cracking up watching the Daily Show with Jon Stewart. He tells it like it is and I like how he'll make fun of both Democrats and Republicans. Usually Hollywood only makes fun of the Republicans. Steve and I were on AIM and watching the show and he messaged me, "Jon just said, 'Suck it bitch!'" It was funny though - I need to catch this show more.

I also tuned into the Orlando Jones show for the first time ever. One of Jay's client's was on! She's really pretty and she has a pretty cool personality. Then, Orlando announced the band that was gonna sing - the Pharcide or however you spell it. I recognized that name but I didn't know from where. Then he said something about Tre Hardson and I remembered! Tre was the guy Amaya dated on Real World Hawaii to make Colin jealous!! Then I realized how pathetic I was for remembering this shit.

edited: Oops, I guess I'm not pathetic for "remembering" cause Kaia was the one who dated Tre on Real World Hawaii... My memory sucks.

So, no one won the lotto last night. I think we got the mega-number right in one of our 65 chances. Whoohoo! A buck split 13 ways. They don't do it right... you gotta go to the ghetto to buy the tickets, not West LA. How many times do you hear of someone from this part of LA winning anything? Give Dante $5, he'll go to the ghetto to buy some tickets and increase our chance of winning.

I was watching Making the Band II last night and damn, these kids don't appreciate the opportunity they have been given. Every episode there's a fight (everyone) or someone not working hard (everyone) or someone taking off when they're not supposed to (Babs) or someone saying they're gonna quit cause they didn't get their hair done (Babs) because the person who answered the phone (Ness) didn't wake her up. Yeah, dumbasses. Stop bitching and moaning and start writing some songs! They complain about what P. Diddy wants them to do and he's only doing that to keep their heads from swelling up. P. Diddy even helped one guy (Dylan) stay out of jail. I'd be kissing his ass if I was Dylan. Diddy can be an ass but get used to it. There are plenty of asses in the world and they are like that cause they can be. Good thing these kids aren't working for Suge. Successful people have a great work ethic. I don't like J. Lo but she works her ass off. So does Mariah, Britney, et. al. On yesterday's episode, P. Diddy was giving them this talk about work ethic or whatever and Frederick fell asleep sucking his thumb. WTF?? The American Idols people work hard and I'm not saying that cause I love Justin. Eden's Crush and O-Town never fought as much as these kids ('Da Band', yeah, that's their name. Recipe for success right there.) do, as far as I can remember.

I'm looking out my window and oh my god, that lady in the BMW can't drive!! She spent the last 15 minutes trying to get into that spot. For those of you that don't know, THIS is the view from my window. My desk faces the window and I look down on the little plaza all day. (BTW, the Chinese food place in that plaza totally sucks). I took that picture weeks ago cause I was bored. See that structure on the top left? Thats Westside Pavilion. I work that close to Westside Pavilion and I hardly ever go there.

CA Lotto Time again - the jackpot is at $41 mil so the office is doing another pool and I just wasted $5. We NEVER win anything but we don't want to be the only one left out just in case this is the time. $41 mil split up between the 13 people who did go in on the pool wouldn't amount to too much after taxes but its something (it'll come out to like $1.5 mil per person after the lump sum and after taxes I think). I keep thinking that winning the lotto is a once in a lifetime thing and you don't want to waste your once in a lifetime on a small jackpot.

Eileen and I were talking about what we'd do if we won. Buy property, pay off my car, sell it and get a new Audi... We'd still work because what else are we gonna do all day? My roommate and I have a pact that we'd dump our boyfriends if we won the lotto. Her boyfriend is actually good to her too. Dante is an asshole so I'd be better off dumping him anyway, even if I didn't win. I've told my mom I'd pay off their mortgage if I ever won the lotto and I found out a couple weeks ago they only financed about 25% of the value of the house and the cost of upgrades so I wouldn't have to pay too much :).

I watched Sex and the City again last night. "Hot Dog" (Berger) was a complete asshole for what he did at the end. I'm done dealing with moody men. Where are all the fun ones??!? I'm not moody and I don't feel like having to deal with a guy who is. Anyway, back to Sex and the City. Baryshnikov Swoons for "Sex". They're gonna have some Russian dancer who is way older than Carrie be the final man she falls in love with, before ending the series. I'm depressed now cause I wanted her to either end up with David Duchovny's new character or Mr. Big. I even liked her with Berger! Wow, too much analyzing for a TV character's life. Do they still sell the DVDs to Season 4 at Costco?? I still need to get that one.

I had to get Burger King for lunch today because I was watching Big Brother for some reason last night and they brought in Burger King food. Looked way too good and I was craving it all last night but I was too lazy to get in the car so I decided to just go today. Tasted so good. Damn, they got me with that 'product placement'.

My day was just brightened - The Onion | Gigli Focus Groups Demand New Ending In Which Both Affleck And Lopez Die - don't know what the movie was about, don't really plan on seeing it. Didn't even watch the Dateline interview they did a couple weeks ago. Rumor has it, Ben wants to run for Congress and they're trying to makeover J-Lo into the sweet loving politician's wife, with Ben wearing the pants in the relationship. The Smoking Gun came out with this story a little while ago about how Ben has voted once in the past ten years, and it wasn't in 2000, when he joined Al Gore on his campaign to get out the youth vote. How does someone so blah get named Sexiest Man Alive?? By being associated with Jennifer Lopez?? J-Lo wasn't even a huge name until she dated P. Diddy. Oh well, as long as they're happy. But I'm willing to bet my "lotto winnings" this marriage won't last :).

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FUNNY THINGS ABOUT MEN

Men are like ... Laxatives ...They irritate the shit out of you.
Men are like ... Bananas ... The older they get, the less firm they are.
Men are like ... Vacations ... They never seem to be long enough.
Men are like ... Weather ... Nothing can be done to change them.
Men are like ... Blenders ... You need One, but you're not quite sure why.
Men are like ... Chocolate Bars ... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.
Men are like ... Coffee ... The best ones are rich, warm, & can keep you up all night long.
Men are like ... Commercials ... You can't believe a word they say.
Men are like ... Department Stores ... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
Men are like ... Government Bonds ... They take soooooooo long to mature.
Men are like ... Mascara ... They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
Men are like ... Popcorn ... They satisfy you, but only for a little while.
Men are like ... Snowstorms ... You never know when they're coming or how many inches you'll get.
Men are like ... Lava Lamps ... Fun to look at, but not very bright.
Men are like ... Parking Spots ... All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

Maybe I'm just paranoid but ever since I took my car into the dealer two months ago, I've been having more and more problems. My car has too many miles so its not under warranty anymore. Do you think the dealer would intentionally do stuff to your car so you'd have to go back in? I had all these repairs done two months ago, then I had to replace some chip on my engine two weeks ago and now my ABS light is on and the Brake light is flashing. What the hell?? I can't afford to fix every damn thing on that car and I didn't have problems until after I went to the dealer to get the check engine light off!

Andy messaged me Friday night - "Come over! We're having a party." He's the king of not giving anyone any notice. Anyway, I went, and Asha was there - I hadn't talked to her in months. Everyone assumed I was an engineer major at UCLA cause I knew all of them so well. I had to tell them, no, I met Andy through his ex-girlfriend Denise and I met Asha through Andy. Asha was saying she didn't know Andy was dating Denise until a couple months after they got together, when she saw them kiss. Shocked the hell out of her. :) Denise and I used to go to all the UCLA games with a group of people and one day, she just introduced him as "This is Andy. He's going to go to the games with us." That was it.

The whole incident made me think about how I meet people and who stays in my life. I've been friends with Mike the longest and we met in junior high band. I don't even think we were that close back then. I switched school so often in elementary school that I didn't have the same classmates/friends for more than a couple years. I started being friends with Nozomi after she started dating Mike. I thought Leila was my best friend through junior high and high school but obviously not, we didn't even bother keeping in touch after high school. I was friends with Grace because she was Mike's younger sister and I didn't get to know Grace's best friend Amy until a couple of years later when she started hanging out with me, Mike, Nozomi and Grace and now Amy is one of my closest friends. We had so much in common we just started hanging out together.

I met most of my current friends in college, most of them freshman year. Jenny was the first friend I met at UCLA because her friend Noelle was in my orientation group. I think we all went in UCLA as history majors but graduated as something else. Steph lived down the hall in Sunset Village. Steve lived next door and we became friends after my "is that the Hut guy?" comment - he had a picture of Darth Vader on his door and I'd never seen Star Wars before. We became friends with Jennifer and Monica after they started making fun of me for that also. I picked up a few more friends later on in college but I don't talk to/see them as often.

I've only picked up 2 significant people in my life since I graduated college. Dante and Eileen. Eileen and I met at work, had a lot in common, got an apartment together and we've shared an office since I got my promotion a year ago. I see her the most so she knows everything going on in my life. Dante just came into my life because I had been flirting with someone else and I chose Dante over the other guy. We became boyfriend/girlfriend a week after we met and everything just happened way too quickly in that relationship.

What are the factors that allow a person into your life?? How does a person go from just someone you see on the street to an acquaintance to a friend? What compels you to care about another person enough to entrust them with things that mean a lot to you? Damn, I'm starting to sound a lot like Carrie Bradshaw... I forgot Sex and the City was on last night too so I missed it. This is why I need TIVO! :)

One of our clients is the executive producer for a show on the Lifetime network and this actress sent us her headshot and acting resume to forward to her. Eileen started bitching about why the client can't produce a show with 4 hot guys instead of all those women. "Lifetime: The Women's Network has shows with mostly women, and now that Spike TV: The Network for Men has shows with mostly women. Where do we have to turn to find shows with MEN??"

I found a new job for all you guys - Chicken Sexer.

Oh my god - it's done!! 100 Things About Me. Took me about a week to do it so I've been neglecting this page. I'll post more later, just need to get some work done first.

Saddam�s sons killed in U.S. raid: "The United States had offered a $25 million bounty for Saddam and $15 million for each of his sons. Sanchez said that the raid Tuesday morning was based on �a walk-in tip� from an Iraqi source and that the U.S. government expected to pay the reward."

Wow - someone is $30 million richer today. Hey, there's still $25 million up for grabs... hmmmm.

I talked to the headhunter about my interview this morning and after the conversation, she said there is another company in West LA she wants to submit my resume to. She told me the name of the company and I started laughing because we lost a big client to them last year. Of course I would love to work there! I think right now, I'm just looking for big companies in office towers that pay around $5000 more than I'm getting right now (after the raise). Cute boys in those towers would be a plus.

I went to Beverly Hills this morning to interview with a business management company (I had to go because I've rescheduled 3 times already and the guy still wanted to see me) and I'm not sure how it went, they do exactly what I do here so I know I'm qualified... Anyway, I'm giddy right now because when I got off the elevator in the lobby, I saw a guy who looked just like Nick Lachey from 98 Degrees! Coulda been him for all I know, going to see his business manager, etc. (The company I interviewed with does business management for celebrities also but mostly television producers, writers, etc.) Except, it was 8:45am and I don't know if celebs wake up that early. I'll definitely take his look-a-like. Nick is married anyway. I also saw another cute white boy when I got into the other elevator to get to the garage. I miss working in office towers with lobbies and lots of companies - you meet so many people who you don't work with. Cute employed white boys... what a concept. Also, what a change from my normal cute unemployed black boys.

My old roommate must've hated Dante so much she moved out to move into the next building. I think all her hate started when Dante was in the living room talking to the idiot who lived downstairs and they said something about my roommate being fat (I think she's 6'0, 180 lbs at least... big boned). Anyway, so glad she moved out and my current roommate moved in. The atmosphere at the apartment is so much nicer, more like an apartment instead of just 2 people living in 2 rooms with the doors shut 90% of the time. I found out she moved next door when my neighbor mentioned something to me about it and I saw a car like hers parked in the garage over there. But I still wasn't sure until I was taking out the trash last night and I heard her familiar *cough**cough*. It used to bug me a little to hear that every 10 minutes when she was living with me but damn, if I can hear it from the backyard of a different building... GEEZ.

So, no one told you life was gonna be this way.
Your Job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear.
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year ...

I don't know how many times I heard that this weekend. Actually, I heard - So, no one and I just pressed the fast forward button on the DVD. I bought all 4 seasons of Friends DVDs on Friday from Best Buy (they had a deal for $40 off if you buy all 4 seasons and that's like a free season right there!) and I spent the entire weekend with that on TV. I love it though - they have so many deleted scenes added on the episodes! Considering the fact I've seen every episode almost 4 million times because of syndication, I can tell when they add a scene I've never seen before.

So, because I watched so much Friends (I'd turn off the DVD when the channel 5 syndication came on, watch that episode and go back to the DVD afterwards), I didn't get a chance to blog about the Kobe thing. I think it was consensual but who the hell knows. There are seriously tons of girls who'd do it with him willingly so what makes her so special that he'd try to rape her? And another thing, have I been hanging around assholes (Dante & Co.) so long I'm not even surprised he could cheat? They're all the same. Not to offend anyone, but are there ANY black guys (cute/decent looking ones) out there who are faithful?? And if there are and you're single, can you e-mail me? heehee, just joking. uh, not really. *whispering* e-mail me.

Spike TV to air new 'Joe Schmo' pseudo-reality TV program - Premiering September 7 at 9PM ET, "The Joe Schmo Show' will feature a law-school dropout named Matt Kennedy Gould who thinks he's competing for $100,000 on a "Big Brother"-style reality show called "Lap of Luxury," but is in fact the victim of an elaborate prank designed to torture him. All the other "contestants" (and the "host") are secretly paid actors, and they are all conspiring to make Joe's time on the show miserable. How awesome does that sound?? Oh my god, I've turned into a heartless b*tch. Oh well, you win some, you lose some.

I don't know if anyone has ever seen Most Extreme Elimination Challenge on Saturday nights, but that show is hilarious. I watched it once when I was in Santa Barbara and we could not stop laughing. The fastest 30 minutes ever. I love TNN/Spike TV. :)

A lot of drama this week, but I just don't feel like talking about it. I'm stuck in a rut, I need a new man, a new place to live (preferably a place that I own, but I don't see that in my near future), a new job, a new everything. ... working on it ...

A couple years ago, Andy was supposed to introduce me to his friend Stacy (a guy) who looks like Gary Payton... never happened but that's ok - I don't know if I could date a guy who has a girls name :).

I've been feeling BLAH this week. I don't know why. This week has just sucked and I can't pinpoint anything exactly. I spent a lot of time with Dante this week (more than I usually do), I have money in my pockets, I have my car back, the weather is fine... I just don't know what it is and I don't know what it would take to get me happy again. I even went to American Eagle Outfitters and didn't buy anything!! What is wrong with me??

At least I have my car back now. I made these mix CDs a week ago and I've barely been able to listen to one CD - when your commute is 1.8 miles (according to yahoo maps) and it takes you 5 minutes to get to work, you only get to hear one song per trip. Anyway, one of my CDs is a sure cheer-me-up. I made 2 80s CDs - one with good songs from the decade, the other with New Kids on the Block (Step by Step, Hanging Tough), Wham! (Wake Me Up Before You Go Go), Frankie Goes to Hollywood (Relax), J. Geils Band (Love Stinks)... no matter how mad you are, who wouldn't start laughing when they hear...

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh. Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
Listen up everybody if you wanna take a chance.
[Rap:] Just get on the floor and do the New Kids' dance.
Don't worry 'bout nothing 'cause it won't take long.
[Rap:] We're gonna put you in a trance with a funky song, 'cause you gotta be
Hangin' tough, hangin' tough, hangin' tough.
[Rap:] We're rough.

... sung by 5 white boys with funny hair and funny outfits. Thinking about that just cheered me up a bit right now. Puts me in the mood to watch The Wedding Singer tonight.

One of the girls here quit a couple weeks ago and last Friday was her last day. She was driving to West LA all the way from Temple City everyday. I don't know how she did it and why she did it for so long - I found out how much they were paying her here and DAMN, I'm surprised she stayed that long. I heard she got a government job closer to where she lived that paid almost twice what she was getting here. I thought they were paying her way more than they really were. She has an MBA and she was working for that cheap?? It took her an hour and a half each way in traffic everyday and she still did it. I complain about the three lights and six stop signs I have on my way to work! :) I don't know why people would commute anymore, especially in LA traffic. It just makes the workday that much longer. We work 9-6 but if you have a commute, its like you're working 7:30a to 7:30p everyday, if you're lucky and there aren't any accidents. My workday is 8:55a to 6:05p and I love it. I miss out on morning radio talk shows though. They're usually playing commercials or music (the one random song they play every morning) during that time. Oh well, I'll deal.

I have such a crush on Tony Blair and I don't know why!! Guess I'm just power hungry these days.

AAWWWW... now that's what I like to see! :)

I had the longest day today. I took the afternoon off to go pick up my car in Norwalk. I can't tell you how much I miss my car. No more ugly ass guys honking at me at the bus stop :). Anyway, Dante took me to get my car and we left West LA at 2pm to "beat the traffic". We did beat a little traffic but the car wasn't ready yet so I ended up waiting at the dealer til 6pm!! In that time, we looked at a couple Porsches, Audis and BMWs and talked to a salesman about trading my car in because my lease is up soon. They told me my payment right now is really low ($437/month including tax) and if I traded in my car to get a new car, my payment would go up. I'd trade it in in a second but I am SOOOOO over on mileage on my current lease and its probably better for me to buy off the car at the end of the lease. The salesman was telling me how much better it would be to get a brand new car with 0 miles, warranty, clean slate, etc... of course it would be, but my raise wasn't that high!

I had to go back to Orange County tonight too - my sister in law is going back to Taiwan tomorrow (actually, today cause its 1:40am) and we had to go see the nephew one last time. My sister picked me up and we went together. My sis got these new TV screens (for DVDs and video games) put into her car (on the back of the headrests) and she was trying to hide it from my parents because they'd yell at them for spending more money. I know if I did trade my car in and get a new one and manage to hide it from my parents (cause thats gonna be a huge lecture), my sis would rat me out first chance she gets... scenario: my parents find out about the TV screens and they'll divert attention away from themselves and tell my parents, Lucy got a new car!

The repeat of one of the funniest Friends episodes ever was on tonight - it was "The One Where Ross got High" - Thanksgiving dinner, Monica and Ross's parents are joining them and Monica and Ross ended up ratting each other out on everything. The whole yelling part was funny but my favorite part of the episode was when they found out Rachel messed up on her "beef truffle dessert" because the pages in the recipe book were stuck together and Joey immediately yells out, "Chandler!"

Dems Blame White House for Iraq Claim - OH MY GOD... It was 16 freakin words in a speech that was probably hundreds of thousands of words long. So sick of seeing those stories on my My Yahoo news page. And it wasn't the ONLY reason we went to war. It was based on British intelligence (that they got from the French) and that they still stand by. LET IT GO! To be fair, I was getting sick of the whole Bill Clinton lied thing a couple years ago and I started feeling sorry for him after the Republicans attacked him on it. Difference here is Bush didn't "lie" intentionally - intelligence isn't perfect - if it were, we wouldn't have any problems.

Find Your Spot - Find out where you were "meant to" live. What the hell? I got Seattle 1st, New York City 2nd, Kent, Washington 3rd, Wilmington, Delaware 4th and so on. I thought I was Westside (LA) til I die. LA didn't even show up anywhere on that list and there are 24 cities on the list. I wouldn't mind Washington DC or anywhere in Hawaii either but those weren't on the list. Oh well.

I talked about making a decision last week and sticking to it. Its hard to stick to something when you're getting good offers! Well, I haven't gotten those offers yet but I've gotten the opportunity to get those offers. I sent out a couple resumes the first week of July and after my bosses told me they were giving me a raise, I just stopped all job search activities. Then I was hearing back from the jobs that I did apply to. On Friday, a company called me to interview me - its another business management company with entertainment industry clientele (exactly like the one I'm with right now except bigger company, more and better clients) in Santa Monica by the beach. They liked my resume and they liked the fact that I was already doing what they do. I remember applying to the job too - they offer around $10,000 more than I make at my current company, even after my big raise. I'm going to go to this interview just to see what happens. I have to reschedule though because my check engine light in my car started blinking and I had it towed to the dealer today so I'm carless at least until the end of the day tomorrow.

Dante has been really PMSy lately and its pissing me off because he's taking it out on me. I was talking to him today and I think I've figured out why. He has been sending out hundreds of resumes the last couple months and he hasn't gotten any legit opportunities for good jobs. I sent out 7 resumes 2 weeks ago and I got 3 calls from companies that offer good salaries. Then, my company gives me a raise without me having to demand one. It pisses him off because he thinks my life has been so easy and that I haven't had to work for anything but I worked DAMN hard for my UCLA degree and who cares if my parents paid for my education? My parents worked hard to give me opportunities for a better life, just like I'd like to do for my kids if I ever have any. I'm not going to apologize for them. Also, I know that when you start a new job, you have to prove to them what a hard worker you are and show them what you can do. When he does get a good opportunity, he shows up late to work every other day, he spends a lot of time on the phone on personal calls and he emails personal shit. Companies keep track of that stuff, dumbass, especially on your probationary period! Thats why he's stuck at the low-end jobs he has right now. I offered to help him pay for his education a couple months ago but the idiot hasn't even checked to see where he wants to go and what he wants to study. He SAYS he wants to be an actor (like every other person in LA) and I have producer/director/writer clients who can possibly help him out. I've invited him with me to some client parties so he can meet these people but he flakes on me every time. My other boss Jay has told me that if someone isn't completely motivated, they won't make it in the industry, so I've stopped trying to help Dante out with his "acting". I need to get him out of my life because people like that only bring you down.

I found a new show to watch - Stripped on the STYLE Network. The show shows you how beauty products are made. I am such a product junkie (less so these last two years because I've been broke), but I'm sure Monica can vouch for me - I had a million products in the bathroom we shared in college - makeup, shampoos, body scrubs, body washes, lotions, etc. I'd use them 2 or 3 times, get sick of them and buy something new next time I went shopping. I've become way better though - there are only 3 sets of shampoo/conditioners in my bathroom right now.

Oooh! My client is on the X-Files right now! I love my current clients but I'm curious to see who that other company represents. Jay has awesome clients too. I can't make up my mind!!

My horoscope for the day:

Dear LUCY, This is an important day for you to make valuable connections with others, LUCY. You will find yourself engaged in fast paced, witty conversations and debates from which you can learn a great deal. You are good at seeing both sides of an issue, but the problem is that this can lead to indecisiveness and an inability to make commitments. Choose a path today and stick to it.

I'm trying to figure out if I should cancel the interview I have set up this afternoon. You guys know how I sent out some resumes last week and I met with a headhunter yesterday morning right? Yesterday I get called into the big boss's office and I was wondering what I did wrong because I usually don't have to deal with him. Turns out its time for performance reviews (July 1st) and they're giving me a big raise and they really want me to stay. I don't know what to do now. The headhunter called me this morning and had 2 companies interested in me. I'm such a wimp I'll go on all those interviews because it would be easier than calling and cancelling (because I don't want them to have an unfavorable opinion of me and I wouldn't want that to somehow get around to other companies).

Eileen was on the phone just now and she used the word "snippy". I just started laughing because it just hit me that was one of Al Gore's words during the debates in 2000. Steve and I were talking about those debates last weekend... and the Saturday Night Live parodies of them. Al Gore's sighing, interrupting, "snippy," "lockbox"... George W. Bush's "strategery," "fuzzy math," "Don't mess with Texas!"... Darrell Hammond and Will Ferrell were awesome impersonating the two ("*Cough* That was not a sigh!!" ). I found this site with jokes from the campaign. Good times.

Eileen was cracking me up on Monday. She said she was trying to be nice to the assistant because "it's Monday, it's early and I think I have B.O." Amy and Andy recently saw a picture of Eileen and they were surprised because they said the way I talk about Eileen, they thought she was old, white, ugly and fat. (Amy and Andy don't know each other either, they both told me this though). Do I really give that impression of her? For the record, she is in her 30s, Filipino, pretty and normal sized (Dante says she has thick thighs but I think she's about the same size I am).

Little things - old news, but I just forget to post:

Britney: Not Like a Virgin - well, duh... and besides, who wouldn't want to do it with Justin?? heehee, unless you're a guy, of course. well, some guys... nevermind.

Damon Stoudamire, Darrell Armstrong and Kobe were all arrested recently... What is it, "arrest a NBA player" week? I'm still waiting to hear what Kobe did. And that hospital, DNA story makes me really wonder.

Gary Payton is going to be a Laker, Karl Malone might be next. Welcome to the club... but what bothers me is Gary Payton's agent making a big big deal about his client taking less money to win a championship. I commend and love him for doing that, but Rick Fox had been there, done that (taken less money for a chance to win a championship). Lets just hope Kobe clears up his matter before the season starts so we have no distractions.

Whoohoooooooooooooo!! Adrianne won on America's Next Top Model. I can't believe how I got so into the show. Normally, I'm a person who doesn't want to be surprised, I'll look at the spoilers (from the east coast people) to find out who won what - American Idol, Bachelor, Celebrity Mole, Making the Band II, etc... but I wanted to be surprised tonight. I had tears in my eyes when they announced she won. Yeah, I'm pathetic. What am I gonna do Tuesday nights now?? I feel like this whenever some show ends. :( depressed now.

I got tired of looking at Dante's ugly feet today so I took him down to the salon down the street. A pedicure for $10. I was too lazy to take off my old nail polish and reapply polish so I wanted a pedicure also. The butthead wants to go every week to get a pedicure now. Geez. But seriously, his feet are U-G-L-Y... I'll wait til he falls asleep to take a picture of them - you guys won't believe how ugly they are. There were these two nice girls at the salon that looked like models... one of them is in this month's Lucky magazine. I'll have to go check it out.

I was getting depressed yesterday because I sent out resumes last week (about 7 of them) and I had not heard back yet. People were trying to make me feel better last week saying how it was a holiday weekend and people didn't want to start their interviewing processes with a 3-day weekend coming up. When I didn't get any calls yesterday I was sad... But today! Someone (a headhunter) called me at lunch to set up a 15 minute meeting tomorrow morning (I don't count this as an interview though because its not the same thing) and then someone called me in the afternoon to set up an interview Thursday. Phew. I still have "IT". Last time I was looking for a job, it took me a week between the time I sent out resumes and got hired. I sent out 5 resumes and 2 people called me back. I took the first one I got though and that was a mistake. This job that I'm interviewing for on Thursday pays more than I make currently but not as much as the other jobs I've applied to. Oh well, we'll see what happens.

Press conference on Kobe on TV right now. You can totally tell that the DA in Eagle County, Colorado don't have the national TV experience that the DAs in LA do. I'll have to wait til I hear the facts to make my judgment on the case. There are NO charges filed against Kobe yet. These are ALLEGATIONS of a felony, not a misdemeanor - makes me wonder what they think he did. And why the hell did the sheriff's department go to the judge instead of the DA for the arrest warrant? Seems shady to me. Whatevers. Kobe is way too faithful to his wife. And he was in Colorado for arthroscopic surgery ... who finds the time and energy to sexually attack when you're up for surgery??

If it were any of the other Lakers, I would have an easier time believing it (no offense to anyone) - except maybe Rick Fox. He knows he married someone way better than he is :).

Will reporters stop asking the same questions over and over already?? I need to go back to work.

Happy Birthday to the Prez. I was helping out my parents today so I took some reading material home. I just bought Bush at War by Bob Woodward last week and I decided to start reading it. I'm gonna be going through interviews soon and I'm trying to be a more well-rounded person. I'm only through the first 23 pages (too many distractions!) but the one thing I've realized is that not everyone gets along with everyone on Bush's Cabinet. Donald Rumsfeld and Bush's dad didn't get along, Colin Powell and Bush aren't that close, Rumsfeld blamed Cheney for stuff that happened in Gerald Ford's administation, etc. Also CIA director George Tenet had a chance to kill Bin Laden back when Clinton was president (these people (called Seniors) they hired to track Bin Laden wanted to just shoot everyone in Bin Laden's entourage and just run for it) but President Ford had signed a presidential ban on assassination decades ago so they couldn't do anything. All this from 23 pages! And the book is 362 pages.

One of the distractions at home was the Soapnet Channel. I don't get that channel here but my parents have DirecTV. I watched a whole weeks worth of All My Children this afternoon. I can't believe how superior that soap is to Days and Passions. I used to watch All My Children but when I lived with Steph, she got me hooked on Days. Passions was my own fault. I used to watch Sunset Beach before that was cancelled and they replaced it with Passions.

I don't know about this Trading Spaces Family, it isn't cast well. The carpenter and the host are too similar and those are the two people on every episode.

Why are my boys getting in trouble these days?? First Justin Guarini and the waterboat thing and now Kobe?? Part of me wonders if this is overblown because they are celebrities and people just want to take advantage of them to be on the news.

I had a very productive day yesterday... had lunch with Steve (was on-time for once!! or as close to on-time as I can get). Then came home and did nothing til 8:00pm when I realized Bloomingdales was open til 9. Eileen gave two $15 gift cards (from her client) because she hated parking at Century City Shopping Center and the cards were gonna expire today. She also gave me two $25 rewards certificates (also from the client) that expire in September. I decided to go because I needed some new jeans and all the jeans there were at least $120. I just got makeup instead. After I left Century City, I decided to rush over to Westside Pavilion because I had some clothes to return (I bought them back in March) and I got about $80 back. I decided to go to Home Depot afterwards to return these other things and I got $15 back - my old roommate had a PUR filter on our faucet and in order to install that, she had to take off the aerator (I've become an expert on aerators because I've been to Home Depot 4 times to try and find the right size) and I don't know what she did with it so I've been obsessed with trying to fix the thing myself. I got back to the apartment, saw all the dirty clothes here (mine and Dante's) and decided to head to the laundromat. 8 freaking loads!!

Sunday night... work tomorrow. Sucks. I need a life to make my weekends more interesting. At least I have America's Next Top Model to look forward to on Tuesday! Its the finale and I want Adrianne to win but we'll see. I got Jenny hooked on it last week. :) Her friend worked on this show a little bit and she knows who won... hmmmm.

There was a really good episode of While You Were Out on just now. They transformed a patio into an Irish Pub and it looked amazing. Just being able to watch Andrew the carpenter in action is reason enough to watch the show but when the idea and the outcome look amazing, its totally worth it. The host Teresa was wearing a My Little Pony tank top and I noticed she has on the same Tiffanys necklace I do! (its the one thing Dante has given me that I've loved and worn every day - he went to a Dodger game a couple nights ago and gave me a Brian Jordan bobble head doll - said he bought it for me because he was thinking about me when he went to the game... I knew better - it was a promotion giveaway).

Anyways, I found more things to do with my new digital camera - 26 Things International Photographic Scavenger Hunt. So now I have things to do with the camera besides let Dante take stupid pictures of his stupid car.

Still have a buttload of laundry and cleaning to do. Guess I shoulda done something besides sit on my butt all day. :)

What is wrong with me?? Last night I was on my way to Target and at the light, a cute black guy (my age!) in an E-class Benz tried to holla at me but stupid me, I didn't roll my window down. He was cute!!! and he had a Benz!! He was probably tall too. Damn. (I did roll down my window but the light turned green at the same time so oh well...) And the day before, I parked on the street and I was walking to my apartment and my cute young apartment manager Thomas said hi to me. I was like, "oh hi!!" really enthusiastically and we were just walking together but I had nothing else to say to him :(. I've lost my flirting skills and I'm only 25...

Heehee, Eileen is talking about how hideously ugly Nicholas Cage is... I can't believe how much I love the movie The Family Man despite him. That hasn't been on STARZ lately. My life sucks.

VH1 has the 50 Greatest Teen Idols on right now and how can NKOTB be only number 19?? (The website and the show have different rankings - I don't know why) They're the ones who started this whole boy band thing. It was so cool to have anything New Kids back in 5th/6th grade. Michael J. Fox is also on this list #13, I think... Alex P. Keaton is the reason I'm a Republican. I wanted a DeLorean so bad (yeah, I know they're UGLY) and I always thought that even if I messed up anything in life, I could go "back to the future" later in life and fix it. I was 8, what the hell did I know?? Boy, do I wish I had a time machine. It just seems so simple with the flux capacitor and the plutonium. Other teen idols... Scott Baio (#44 New boy in the neighborhood, lives down stairs and it's understood. He's there just to take good care of me, like he's one of the family. Charles in charge of our days and our nights. Charles in charge of our wrongs and our rights. So I say I want Charles in charge of me.), #31 Donny and Marie Osmond (Fez had the best line from That '70s Show - "Its hard to work with someone after you have sex with them. I don't know how Donny and Marie do it.").

Just got back from the gym 15 minutes ago, except I have no evidence to show I was there (except my bulging muscles of course!). I didn't have my membership card so I was gonna use my drivers license but the guy just waved me through. More proof I actually did go to the 24 Hour Fitness in Santa Monica - every weight machine I was on has the stick set at like 100 pounds or so. I know Eileen does this too - after we get off a machine, we put the stick down a couple weights so people can't tell how weak we are (example - we do some exercises at 35 pounds and after we're done, we'd set the machine to like 90 pounds so the people who saw us on the machine and who get on the machine after us would say, "wow that girl is strong!") But hey, seriously, I'm not joking about my bulging muscles. I can truly see a difference everytime I go to the gym (which is not very often). My stomach is tight again, even when I'm sitting down, I totally have arm muscles and my thighs look thinner!

The Trading Spaces rerun on right now is one of my favorite episodes... Doug did an amazing kitchen (even gave them more counter space and new wood floors) and Vern did an awesome living room complete with new wood floors, some feng shui coffee table with sand, and fish in glass pots hanging from the ceiling. Vern came in at exactly $1000... some people accuse Vern of using his Trading Spaces name and connections to get cheaper prices so his rooms look better but who cares?? As long as the homeowners have a nice room, why does it matter? People at home won't be able to do it exactly the same way anyways. Thanks for the Trading Spaces book Jenny :) Paige (her full name is Mindy Paige Davis and she married Patrick Page so she's Mindy Paige Davis Page) annoys some people because she's so cheery all the time but I was reading her section of the book and I loved how she was saying politics is her "sports" - during the State of the Union address, she and her husband were on the phone analyzing it - so cute!

I'm about to shock the hell out of everyone I know...

I'm off to the gym!! :0 And yes Steve, its still at the same place it was last time I went (I think). I can't believe I couldn't keep my New Years resolution of going to the gym at least once a month. I'm only going right now because Dante was parked in my spot when I came back here and now that he left, I need to go down and move my car because I parked somewhere where you're not allowed to park after 7am.

Bunch of random stuff:

Everyone's friendster says they're "in a relationship"... I'm sorta in a relationship, does that count?

Everytime I go to Home Depot, I always get hit on by some of the workers there. Is it because there aren't too many females my age who go there? I just go because there are so many useless people in my life and when I want to do something or fix something, I gotta do it myself. Too bad there aren't workers there who look like Ty from Trading Spaces or Andrew from While You Were Out.

Luke Walton Follows in Dad's Footsteps in LA - the third paragraph - "He's got a big body and he knows his way around the court," Lakers coach Phil Jackson said.... For a second there, I thought Phil had said - He's got a big booty :) Makes me think of what Mike pointed out about Rick Fox. He uses his big butt to push people out of the way for rebounds and to protect his rebounds. I never noticed it until he said something but thats all I can think of now. Kinda like when Asha pointed out that Dan Gadzuric (ex-UCLA basketball player, now with Milwaukee I think) has a head thats too small for his body.

I found a new show to watch - Modern Girl's Guide to Life on STYLE network. Cute little show, no thinking necessary. Also, why is Uncle Jesse (John Stamos) doing 10-10-987 commercials now? Can't he just live off his wife's money and his residuals from Full House? Or borrow some money from the Olsen twins? They're worth about $40 million each.

The benefits of having a cute roommate - (the conversation between me and my brother)

PoLox95: hey
PoLox95: im headin up to la today to help a friend move
PoLox95: you need anything?
Lucyla8: not really
Lucyla8: maybe dad's carpet steamer but i think its easier if we rent a smaller one from ralphs
PoLox95: carpet steamer
PoLox95: haha
PoLox95: im gonna be the janitor to your roommate
PoLox95: aight igotta run gonna take dads truck for a ride hehe
PoLox95: oil change actually =P
Lucyla8: man, come take my car for an oil change
Lucyla8: heehee :-)
Lucyla8: jk
PoLox95: if your roomie comes with the car
Lucyla8: heehee
PoLox95: free oil change
PoLox95: haha
PoLox95: wat time do you get off work?
PoLox95: maybe i'll drop by
PoLox95: i still owe you 50 bucks
Lucyla8: i get off at 6
Lucyla8: no you dont
PoLox95: cool if im in the area i'll drop by
Lucyla8: you paid me everything already
PoLox95: yes i do
Lucyla8: ok
PoLox95: would you just take the 50
PoLox95: i need an excuse to drop by dork
PoLox95: haha
Lucyla8: heehee
PoLox95: ok gonna run
PoLox95: ttyl
Lucyla8: bye

Darn you Steph!! Why did I waste half an hour of my life watching House Hunters on HGTV?? That show is almost as bad as Before and After (HGTV also) and it took me a couple months to stop watching that show. I can't believe they put shows together like this with people who have absolutely NO personality at all!! There's a random house hunter and real estate agent in every episode and I can't believe they've managed to find so many boring people! Damn, you're buying a HOUSE, look a little enthusiastic!! After they enter a room, the house hunter will say something about the room and on cue, the real estate agent will say, "Lets check out the blah blah blah room." followed immediately by an "Okay." They do this enough times per episode you could have a drinking game and be wasted in 30 minutes. Yeah, yeah, you guys are saying, "what else are they supposed to do for the show?" I'm way too jaded with reality TV - its not like I expect the house hunter and the real estate agent to start making out, fighting or voting someone off or something, but damn, make it a little interesting! If I were in charge of producing a show for HGTV, any kind of show, I bet I could make it funny and have it be the highest rated show on the network.

I watched a shitload of bad TV today. I watched two episodes of America's Next Top Model (stop laughing, I think I like stuff more when people start making fun of me for it), Real World, the Osbournes, House Hunters, Mostly True Stories: Urban Legends Revealed (TLC) and part of If Looks Could Kill (Richard Grieco!!). Top that off with Days and Passions this afternoon and my day is complete.

I have so much more to talk about but its time to sleep... otherwise I'll be kicking myself in the morning.

I had a Mocha Cappuccino Blast last night from Baskin Robbins and it was soooo gooood (haven�t had those since I was in college and those suckers kept me awake in so many classes) but I was regretting it at 3am when I couldn�t sleep. My roommate and I did the hair dyeing thing last night. I didn�t know that I could use blonde in my hair to lighten it up a little bit but I�m so glad I did because I love the color. The ammonia smell is bugging the hell out of me though. I also finished a photo collage for my wall last night. I bought one of those big clip frames from IKEA for $6.95 and I�ve been working on it for the past 2 weeks.

Dante came over after work on Friday and he saw the Justin Guarini CD on my desk� all I heard for the next 10 minutes was him mocking me with a girly voice �Justin, I love you Justin, Justin is cuter than you� blah blah blah� then he spoke in his normal voice � �Babe, I�m gonna dub this.� He called me yesterday to tell me, �hey, this CD is pretty tight.� I was like, �DUH! I know!� heehee.

Eileen is rambling again � this time about her friend who went to a Harry Potter thing at midnight. �If it doesn�t involve a man, it�s not worth it that late at night!� Eileen, Mike, Mike�s friend Clarence and I had our �master of my domain� contest � I�m not gonna give details or tell you who won, but the contest lasted a whole 6 days! (total and complete SARCASM) :)

I completely wasted my day off of work. I took the day off because my mom is being sworn in today and I wanted to go to be supportive and I figured I could use a day off. Guess what I did today... went to the ceremony, came home, went to 2 stores at Westside Pavilion (kept running into people I knew there - someone from college (Katrina @ American Eagle) and someone from work (Felita on my way out)), then Dante and I had our cars washed during his lunch break, had Panda Express, came home and SLEPT. I had so many things to do too!!! I just came back from Sav-on though - picked up my pictures and bought some hair dye so my roommate and I can have our hair dyeing party tonight (took me an hour of looking through magazines and old newspaper ads to find my L'Oreal Preferences coupon - to save a freakin BUCK). Those pictures I took were awesome though - Dante is gonna be so mad at me when he finds out I took a picture of him bent over (in boxers and socks, butt sticking up) cleaning the tub. We also had other pictures where he was trying to pose like a model (the pursed lip thing, the jacket halfway off on the arm thing... it was my fault for putting up a Tyson Beckford calendar last year).

Shit is gonna hit the fan next week. Felita told me she was giving her two week notice on Monday. The company is already trying to hire two people (one to replace me, one for the other side where Felita works cause they're short one person) and they have been interviewing for like 2 months now - no one!!! I can't live on my current salary anymore and I've already given them 2 months notice so if I leave anytime soon, I shouldn't feel bad.

Wow, the room they did on While You Were Out was amazing!! An Asian zen room... the room looked cool before but this was amazing! Not sure if this is a repeat or not. And why does it seem like Mr. People's 50 Most Beautiful Andrew is doing all the work?? He should be saving his prettiness for ME! :)

I gotta go... I gotta clean the apartment before Amy gets here tomorrow.

OK, so who�s going to go see From Justin to Kelly with me tomorrow?? My roommate is suddenly MIA.

Remember the Friends finale when they got to Barbados and it was raining the whole time? Then the sun came out and the weather was perfect but they had to attend Ross�s speech and then after the speech it started raining again� When I have free time, it is cloudy here 90% of the time but last weekend, when I had to go to Amy�s graduation in Santa Barbara and then I had to drive back to OC for Father�s Day, it was perfect tanning weather. I got sunburned a little bit and it turned into a nice little tan, but I definitely still need to work on my tan � I�m still butt-white. It�s LA, it�s June, we�re supposed to be sweating our asses off!!

I�m gonna be making a Costco run either today or tomorrow if anyone wants to go � I *promise* I won�t drag you to the theater once I have you in the car! I need to get my disposable camera developed and I need to get some Equal sugar for Eileen and I to share (believe me, we can finish a Costco-sized box in a couple months).

I have a ton of stuff I need to do ASAP... clean my bathroom, mop the bathroom and kitchen floors, do my laundry, organize my room (i.e. throw everything in an orderly fashion into my walk-in-closet) so I can have my brother bring his old dresser, clean out and organize the refrigerator, wash my car, buy a vase to decorate for Eileen's birthday (I'm going to Costco again next Tuesday to buy a bouquet of flowers), get a sheer white shirt from American Eagle Outfitters to wear underneath all my other sheer shirts (some of the ones I have are too see-thru) - I don't think they have my size anywhere anymore though... go to Best Buy in Westwood because supposedly they give out a Justin Guarini poster if you buy the CD there, return the Justin CD I just bought at Target 3 days ago, write my cover letter for my resume...

Dante works 2 blocks away from my apartment now so he comes over at lunch to raid my fridge. We have a contest to see who can get to my apartment first from our jobs... he wins but that's cause he drives like hell and he's closer. Lets see how long this job lasts though.

I HAVE to get a new job. I was just writing this little cover sheet for a fax and I had to look up a word in the dictionary to make sure my wording was ok: "The service charge corresponds to the 5/16/03 wire to..." I can't believe I had to look up such a simple thing. The reason my vocabulary/grammar has deteriorated is because I'm surrounded by people who can barely speak English (my new roommie, the assistant) or speak ghetto English (Dante). I love my roommate and I love Dante but I just need to be surrounded by college grads or something. When I was working for Mona and I talked to her attorney and judge friends all the time, my grammar was so much better and I felt way more intelligent. All Dante really talks about is his car, racing, what he wants to get for his car, and what girls are "on" him. We talk about the Lakers occassionally but anything 'intelligent' is me talking and him listening. When I hang out with Don (Mona's former boss), Denise (his assistant) and Mona, we would always talk about current events, politics (they're strong Democrats but thats ok... the other attorney who hangs out with us sometimes - Brandon - is a strong Republican and we're gloating half the time), sports and what clients Don feels like taking on (Scott Peterson doesn't have enough money for Don to consider taking him).

Freakin A... The assistant just came in here with a check from Vivendi Universal and she was telling me - we only have 'Universal' set up. (See my journal entry on 5/21/03: I NEED to do a huge ass memo for this job... 1. Yes, for the 20th time... Vivendi Universal is Universal Studios and it really doesn't matter who you put down as the 'name', just be consistent. ) Need to find a new job, need to find a new job... It's sad when you'd rather find a new job than deal with an assistant you have.

My weekend was fun - went up to Santa Barbara again for my friend's graduation. It is so fun hanging out with her friends up there because they are so nice. There must've been at least 30 people sleeping in the house the night before graduation - we fit 8 people into one little little room (the girl who lived in there moved out that morning), Amy's roommate Jenn had her family sleeping in the room she and Amy shared, Justin had a friend in his room, the other Amy had her room to herself, and there were a couple people sleeping in the living room. Grace and I didn't get up to Santa Barbara until about 10pm Saturday night because we stopped by my friend's housewarming party first for some free food. My friend's roommate is a fireman so there were a bunch of firemen at the party... yum, and I don't mean just the food :). We went bar hopping in downtown Santa Barbara and didn't get to sleep until about 5am. Amy's graduation was at 9am so the Amys and their families left early while all of us were still sleeping. I woke up around 8:45 and no one else was up yet but we were planning on going just in time to see Amy walk so it was ok. At 10:30am, Rob (Amy's boyfriend) was still sleeping and I didn't know how to wake him up so Justin starts poking him with the wrapping paper core and we made it just in time to see the Amys walk. I took a ton of pictures (some with a digital and some with my disposable) - yay, Jennifer, I can finally develop that camera and give you the second part of your Christmas gift - the picture we took at that dinner! There was a barbeque after the graduation and then Grace and I headed back to LA so we could make it in time for Father's Day with our families.

Stan must have a girlfriend or something... He hasn't been bugging us about work, he hasn't talked to Eileen about being late and that cheap ass is shopping at Nordstroms and Banana Republic.

Eileen forwarded this to me:

Five Secrets to the Perfect Relationship

1. It is important that a man helps you around the house and has a job.

2. It is important that a man makes you laugh.

3. It is important to find a man you can count on and who doesn't lie to you.

4. It is important that a man is good in bed and loves making love to you.

5. It is important that these four men don't know each other.

I think Dante fits #2 only... except he makes me cry more than he makes me laugh.

Darn US Open!!! Days isn't on so what am I gonna watch right now at lunch? ... E! True Hollywood Story: Clueless.

Last night I watched a completely random show - MTV True Life: First Year and a couple minutes after I finished watching it, Steph IMed me and asked, "did you just watch True Life?" I was shocked. I know its MTV and most of the time I'd have the TV on MTV but still, how did she know?? I don't know why but it felt like I was caught watching porn or something (NOT that I know what that feels like cause I've never watched one in my life even though there's one in the VCR everytime I come home - damn boys...)

Stan's story: Eileen and I were asking Stan if he saw The Italian Job yet and he gets into the story about how he went to an unannounced preview for the movie in the Marina a couple weeks before it opened and he was sitting behind this gorgeous girl so of course, he has to try and talk to her. He asks her, "Have you heard anything about this movie?" She turns around - it was Charlize Theron! :) - and she tells him, "I think you'll like it." heehee. He also told us a month or two ago that he has breakfast at the same place in the Palisades than Jennifer Garner goes to and I asked him, "where was her husband??" (This was before they announced the divorce). I can't remember if he tried to talk to her or not but a couple days after he told us that, I saw in the news that they were getting divorced.

Gregory Peck died... I always thought he was one of the cutest... him and Cary Grant. I went through an Audrey Hepburn phase when I was in high school and I watched all her movies - I loved Roman Holiday. David Brinkley died today too. I know I'm getting old when I actually know who these people are and have seen their work.

I was watching a tape of the Friends finale tonight and I just can't get over the beginning.... "Sarah" is exactly like our college roommie Sarah (except TV Sarah is way prettier) - they both wear dark rimmed glasses, are short, and are into archeology. Joey's line at the end is the best!

Charlie: Wow! This place is beautiful!

Ross: (very excited) Look at all these paleontologists!!

Joey: I know, there are gonna be some pasty folks by the pool tomorrow! (A woman goes towards them)

Woman: Oh my God, I can't believe you're here!

Joey: (to Charlie) I think I've been recognized, this happens all the time!

Woman: Doctor Geller, I'm such a huge fan!

Joey: That... never happens...

Woman: I've been following your career for years, I-I can't wait for your keynote speech.

Ross: Wow! This is very flattering, uh...

Woman: I would love your autograph. (hands him a notepad)

Ross: Uh, uh... Sure! Um... "Dear..." (he takes the notepad)

Woman: Sarah.

Ross: "... Sarah. I dig you", Uh? "Doctor Ross Geller".

Sarah: Thank you so much!

Ross: Yeah, oh and Sarah... I'd like to introduce you to my colleague, uh, Professor Wheeler, a-and this is Joey Tribbiani.

Sarah: (to Joey) Are you a paleontologist?

Joey: No, God, no! No! No no, I'm an actor. You'd probably recognize me from a little show called "The Days of Our Lives".

Ross: Dude, it's just "Days of Our Lives"... there's no the.

Joey: (thinking he's kidding) Ok, Ross! It's... It's fun, yeah! No, I-I play Doctor Drake Ramoray.

Sarah: I'm sorry, I don't own a TV.

Joey: You don't own a TV? What's all your furniture pointed at??

Found a link to that Music Video Boy Kmart Ad :)

You know I talk about Justin Guarini way too much when my friends are having dreams about him too!!!

petard03: i have to tell you...i had a dream about justin and its all your fault
Lucyla8: heehee
Lucyla8: what was the dream??
petard03: i only think about him cuz of you
Lucyla8: heehee
Lucyla8: i didn't go buy the album last night :-(
petard03: he was having like a signing at some store and i was there
petard03: and he followed me outside
Lucyla8: this is so funny... now my friends are having dreams about justin!!
petard03: and i was eating a box of snacks or something, but thats irrelavant
petard03: and then i was looking for the bus stops so that i could get home
petard03: and he said he was outside cuz he was smoking
petard03: but i couldnt figure out the bus stops so i decided to walk home
petard03: and he just followed me
petard03: i was like "dont you have a in store you have to be at?"
petard03: hes like "its ok"
Lucyla8: look at you steph... taking the BUS to go to a justin signing
petard03: so he just followed me
Lucyla8: see, he's so sweet!!
petard03: i didnt take the bus, i was just there...but for some reason i wanted to take the bus home
petard03: so i was walking home thru this city
petard03: and it was a busy city, like tokyo or beijing
petard03: asian-ish
petard03: and then i get home and kelly clarkson was there
petard03: i think she was my roommate
Lucyla8: heehee
Lucyla8: oh my gosh
Lucyla8: oh
petard03: i was like "this guy followed me home"
petard03: then he totally ruined it cuz he goes "my friend and i had this bet to see if i could get some girl to let me stay overnight
Lucyla8: oh, that sucks
petard03: and i was pissed
petard03: but he was like "i'm sorry, but i had to tell you"
petard03: i was like "i dont care...you can stay here if you want
Lucyla8: dont worry steph, he wouldn't do something like that in real life - he's too sweet
petard03: it was a weird apt
Lucyla8: :-)
petard03: anyways, i just remember walking thru the apt looking for my room and stuff
petard03: thats it
Lucyla8: heehee
petard03: its all your fault
Lucyla8: did you wake up happy cause you dreamed about justin?
Lucyla8: heehee, sorry steph :-)
petard03: actually, i was a little happy
petard03: hahhahaa
petard03: but i dont even like him
Lucyla8: totally... justin just makes people happy!
petard03: i think its cuz a boy followed me home
Lucyla8: damn, i do talk about him a lot huh
petard03: hahahaha
petard03: yes you do

Oh my god!! I was flipping through the Kmart ad from this weekend looking for a cheap microwave cart so I can get my microwave off the floor and I saw my Music Video Boy ... bottom left, page 6, in Joe Boxer men's loungewear and pajamas. His robe (on sale for $13.29) is open too soo you can see his chest and his abs... damn danm damn. (look at that, I'm so excited I can't even type right)... I'm cutting this out and putting it up on the wall. Have to find out his name somehow...

My new roommate and I were just in my room for the past couple hours just talking, watching TV. I just found out she did some modeling. She gave me a copy of the Chinese magazine she was in and I think she was in a calendar too but she didn't have a copy. She's awesome so far... I'm so glad Kristi moved out - the whole atmosphere around the apartment is just so much more positive. She is always cooking for me too - I feel bad when I go into the kitchen to heat up leftovers or whatever. I really need to go to the grocery store so I have something to share with her.

SURVEY!

last cigarette: never had one.

last car ride: to Titos Tacos cause Dante wanted to go for lunch... then my apartment, then work

last kiss: real kiss - way too long ago, peck on the lips - 2 hours ago

last good cry: whenever the last time the asshole broke up with me was, I can't remember - its happened so many times

last library book: What's a library? Is that what this card in my wallet is for? It says Anaheim Public Library but I haven't used it since elementary school!

last movie seen: in the theaters - The Bourne Identity (yes, it has been that long!), on TV - The Family Man on STARZ

last book finished: Shopaholic Ties the Knot by Sophie Kinsella... FINISHED is the key word here

last beverage drunk: Sunny Delight... I need to go grocery shopping

last food consumed: Titos Tacos - 2 tacos - it was gooooood

last crush: real life or celebrity? real life - just Dante unless you count those fleeting crushes.... celebrity would be Justin G of course

last phone call: dialed - to the audi dealer to see how much it would be to replace my headlight bulbs ($25-30 each), received - client calling to ask me to put $12,000 into his personal account... ah, the life.

last TV show watched: Days of Our Lives, at lunch... last real show watched was the Making the Band II rerun at 2 am last night... last real non-rerun show was a long long time ago.

last time showered: last night

last shoes worn: cute shoes/sandals I bought from Robinsons May - high heels, beige straps...

last CD played: some mix CD... I'll be playing Justin Guarini's new CD tonight after I go to Target!

last item bought: Lysol Cling toilet bowl cleaner - can't get around that cause I tried to be cheap with Comet cleaner, but it doesn't work as well

last downloaded: "If You're Not the One" by Daniel something

last annoyance: oh my gosh - don't get me started... dumb assistant! last annoyance was probably like 2 minutes ago

last disappointment: uh, last real disappointment was not getting that Deloitte job... other than that, I'm always disappointed at something or other but I get over it

last soda drunk: last night, my roomie's green 7 up

last thing written: besides journal entries and work related stuff?? I don't know

last key used: office key

last word spoken: o.k.

last sleep: this morning

last IM: Steve, proposing a Seinfeld-like "Master of Your Domain" contest between me, Eileen, Mike and whoever wants to join.

last weird encounter: so many freaks in LA, can't remember

last ice cream eaten: Thrifty's mint chip ice cream a couple months ago (yeah yeah I missed the free ice cream nights cause I was lazy)... shit - that ice cream box is still sitting in the freezer - I need to toss it out.

last time amused: watching Seinfeld last night - "The Contest" episode

last time in love: only time in love... Dante... yeah, I need to get over that.

last time hugged: 2 hours ago, goodbye hug - Dante

last time scolded: this morning, by my boss cause I couldn't find some home mortgage refi papers... I KNOW he has them, he always does this.

last time resentful: last week, that the client's MAID was buying a house

last chair sat in: my desk chair

last lipstick used: Garden Botanika Sheer Ginger... love that color, too bad the stores have all closed.

Oh no!! The Family Man is on... and so is "It's Good to Be... Brad and Jennifer" What do I do, what do I do??

I have to thank my family for being so hard on me when I was a kid, yelling at me when I didn't understand something and pushing me until I got it right... otherwise, I might be as dumb as the people here. Last week, the assistant's printer was printing all this gunk on the back of the papers she printed out so we told her to have the administrative assistant help her fix/clean her printer. 15 minutes later, the printer is clean but the power won't turn on. They were playing around with it for a little while and they gave up. I just assumed there was a REAL problem so we just started using my computer for printing checks, etc. We just assumed that printer didn't work and that was it. I don't know what they were waiting for though - I thought the big boss was gonna try and fix it later on when he had time but no one did anything with it the whole week. Eileen was complaining about how nothing works around this office today so I got up and decided I'd try to fix that computer - maybe change the settings, etc. I went over to the assistant's desk, the settings were for the wrong printer so I changed that and then I looked at the printer. The cord that connects the printer to the power outlet was loose so I pushed the plug in, turned it on and viola! printer works. Why is the youngest and almost lowest paid person in this office fixing everything?? Stan was asking me computer questions all last week and I fixed something on Eileen's computer. I was gone for an hour last week and the assistant had to print a check so she used my computer. I don't know what the hell she did but I was on the phone giving her directions and then she said the screen went blank but she insisted she didn't touch anything. (She turned the freakin computer off accidentally) Then I told her to turn ON the computer and then I told her to do exactly what she does on her computer to print out a check but do it on mine. It just wouldn't work so I came back to the office early to print out the damn check. That girl changed the settings on my computer!! What the hell... I changed back the settings and printed the check and just sat here for like 15 minutes shaking my head. I do need a damn raise if I do stay here.

Eileen was looking up job opportunities on the internet and she printed this out and highlighted some stuff for me. I've italicized the stuff we were laughing at...

APPLY FOR THIS JOB IF YOU MEET THE FOLLOWING CRITERIA:

1) EXTREMELY HARD WORKING & SUCCESSFUL MULTI-TASKER - rigorous approach to the work day given limitation of time/resources;

2) SCORE HIGHLY ON INTELLIGENCE TESTS - solves mathematical and logic-related problems with speed/ease;

3) THOROUGH & ATTENTIVE TO DETAIL - triple-checking work and constantly seeking industry best-practices;

4) PERSISENT GOAL ACHIEVER - tenacity to see each project to expeditious completion;

5) SELF-MOTIVATED - needs almost no supervision/prodding by management once the job/project has been assigned.

6) STRONG SOFTWARE SKILLS - Microsoft Office, W2K, IE, Advent Axys, Quickbooks.

The workday usually starts at 7:30-8:30 a.m. EST (we are on Wall Street/New York hours). If you are not a "morning person," this probably is not the best fit.

Wow... we're not gonna get a job anywhere else...

This friendster.com thing is totally going overboard� Steph emailed me the link to it last week and this weekend when I was up in Santa Barbara, Amy�s friends were talking about it too. How does word spread so fast among the �cool Asian� (or wanna-be cool Asian) community? One person decides something new is cool and everyone gets on that thing for like the next week, then it dies down?? (i.e. hot or not.com, xanga � how many people actually keep up with it daily like they did in the beginning? There were some other stuff but I can�t remember right now)

Friendster brings up a whole new dilemma too � I think Steph and I make too much of it but sometimes people want to add us as friends but we don�t know them well enough to think of them as a friend and we don�t want to offend them by declining them so we approve their request to be added to our friends list and then bitch about it for the next couple days about how we don�t want them to be on our list for other people to see. This is a total Seinfeld moment� Amy�s friends and I were trying to figure out a way to decline people or delete people without them knowing but its impossible. They�re gonna know. Heehee, Steph and I went through this huge thing yesterday about how to delete someone and say it was an �accident��. didn�t work cause the guy noticed this morning and was all offended. Friends of friends should stay friends of friends� that�s how friendster works! People just want to add more people so it looks like they�re popular.

Anyway, enough. I borrowed my dad�s digital camera this weekend for my trip up to Santa Barbara and I noticed that everyone and I mean everyone has a digital camera now� well, except for Amy�s boyfriend Rob but he has a professional 35mm camera cause he�s a photographer. We were making fun of the one girl with a 35mm disposable camera. I know, I know, spoiled brats� I want to get a digital camera of my own but I�m waiting to see if the novelty will die down before I go out and spend $300 +/- for one. I learned my lesson from the Sony Clie that�s sitting on my desk at home gathering dust.

On the way back from Santa Barbara yesterday, Amy and I were talking about what it would be like if we got an apartment together with Mike� I think Mike and I would still be IMing each other all day � �What�s up?� �Nothing, what�s up with you?� �Just sitting in my room chillin�� � �Wanna get boba tea?� �Ok, meet you 3 feet away in 30 seconds� This would be like when I was living at home and my brother and I would IM each other from our rooms � we�re across the hall from each other and we can see each other when we�re sitting at our desks/computers. My mom was walking by this one time and I think we were talking to each other loud across the hall� my mom started yelling at us for yelling at each other so we got onto IM and IMed each other something like, �What�s her problem??�

McDonald's chicken nuggets are cheap again (according to a radio commercial on STAR)!! Well, only on Tuesdays and they're $1 not 89 cents like they were when we were in college. People used to get excited on Tuesdays... we'd make plans to head down to that crappy drive-thru McDonalds with all the homeless people on Wilshire and whatever that street was (halfway from UCLA to that Fresh Fare Ralphs on Wilshire/Bundy). I haven't had chicken nuggets in a while either cause I think $1.99 is too much to pay for 6 pieces. I'm still mad that the 99 cent fish filet Fridays ended a couple months ago and I didn't take advantage of that offer more.

Eileen told me something this week that kinda pissed me off a little... one of our client's maids is buying a house. A MAID dammit... she's only a couple years older than me and she can barely speak English and she's on her way to home ownership. I think I'm mad at myself for not being in a position to be able to do that. I'm a college graduate working an office job, bossing around a person who is 10 years older than me, taking on full responsibility for a couple client's accounts... but i'm making way less than that maid makes!! And this is a girl who can't afford to repay her boss $25 off her $1000 weekly paycheck every week... Our client gives her employees a credit card to charge household expenses on and this girl will charge some personal stuff on the card so we set up this system where we deduct a loan repayment on her paycheck every week. Every other week she would call us up and ask if we can not take that $25 off, she'll send us a check for that $25 later on in the month. How does she think she's going to afford mortgage every month??

Its just like with Dante... you can barely keep a job, you're always an hour or two late to the security guard job you have right now, how do you think you can afford to pay $900 rent for your own place and a $350 car note... this doesn't include money to live on, utilities, car insurance, etc. Also, at the end of the year, what do you have to show for all the working you did?? A car and the knowledge that you had a place of your own for those 12 months (even though someone was willing to let you move in and give you all the freedom you want and you wouldn't be paying rent, utilities, food, etc.) No savings, nothing... and you still owe California courts a lot of money for all the damn tickets you've gotten in the past 3-4 years. I've been getting mad at him a lot lately because he seems content to just do security guard work (no offense to any security guards out there)... he has no motivation to make his life better. Maybe I'm mad at myself too, for having fallen in love with such a loser.

I'm going up to Santa Barbara again this weekend... hmmm, maybe I'll meet someone :) In the meantime, I'll just play MASH - I've done it 3 times, with different numbers and different positioning of names and in all 3, they told me that I'd marry Justin Guarini (stop rolling your eyes!!) and be a business manager in New York and have a white car... everything else fluctuates (#kids, locations, cars, and housing structure).

Ok, and since everyone and their mommas are doing this - sign up as my friend on Friendster.com. You can see who your friends are friends with and what degrees of separation you have from some people - like a network of friends thing.

Amidst Eileen's morning ramblings - "My eyebrow pencil is gone!! ... I can't work." We have such a boring work environment, no guys to impress here so Eileen and I just get our bodies in the office in the morning... all our getting ready stuff is done here at our desks. I have my tweezers here, I have my toothbrush, toothpaste here and I carry my makeup in my purse :) Eileen even has her blow dryer and flat iron here!

I swear, I'm going to pick up a Sharpie and write "CHECK WHAT WE DID LAST TIME" on my forehead! I'd write it in normal pen, but it would wear out before the dumb assistant figures it out!! This is her third month of doing bank reconciliations and she's still asking me simple stuff every single time the situation comes up. She's been in here 3 times already this morning and every single time I've told her, make the entry the same way we did it last month. It was like this all day yesterday too. Last week Stan told her to do a journal entry and she comes in here telling me Stan told her to do that. I didn't know if she was just telling me or asking me how to do it, so I explained to her, look on the books from May 2002 and see what we did for it last year because I distinctly remember doing it last year. She buzzes me from her desk, "ok, I use this account but what is the other account?" (for accounting journal entries you have to debit one account and credit another account to even it out). I told her again to look at May 2002 because I don't remember what accounts we've set up off the top of my head. She buzzed me a minute later and said it wasn't there. So I get up, I pull out the hard copy of the financial statements (she had the file open on her computer and 2 people can't access the same file at the same time) and I go over to her desk and tell her, ok, debit this account and credit this account. How hard is it to find past history??? That's how I learned how to do this job and I don't think I'm any smarter than the normal person. This girl can't figure anything out, even after we give her directions on how to do it or where to look. There was this one incident last month where I was pissed off because the file was in the drawer and she came into my office three separate times to look in that drawer and she couldn't find it. All three times she doesn't tell me what she was looking for... Stan finally buzzes me and asks me where the file is and I tell him, everything we have for that client is in that drawer (I assumed it wasn't in the drawer cause she looked in there) and he lectures me cause I'm supposed to know where that file is, that's one of our biggest clients and that's an important folder, yada yada yada... As he was lecturing me, she comes in here again and *finds* the folder... in the same freakin drawer she looked in all those times!!

I was playing around with the settings for this journal and I found this thing where you can put in email addresses to email the journal entry to after you've posted so people don't have to check this page a couple times a day to see if I've posted anything (cause I know you guys all do that :) - *complete and total sarcasm*). This also helps if my page loads slow or doesn't load at all... Just let me know if you want me to put your email address on that list. Can you believe it *only* took me 7 months to figure this out??

Wow - I'm exhausted right now but I just wanted to get this in...

I love my new roommie!!! And you know why?? Cause she loves Justin Guarini too!!! heehee. I have someone to go see From Justin to Kelly with now :). She moved all her stuff in here today and we were just talking for the last couple hours. Its amazing how much we have in common. This will be fun - I'm so glad my old roommie moved out and she moved in.

What a difference a week makes... last week I was so happy with Dante, he was moving back in (temporarily) again, we had a great time at dinner with my friends... then this week, he's already pissed me off to the point where I'm 90% sure I want to ask him for my apartment key back and tell him I never want to talk to him again. I've never reached a point where I even considered not letting him come and go at my apartment whenever he felt like it, even if I wasn't there. Eileen thinks I'll finally clear the hurdle when I start at a new job because I'm stuck in a rut right now. UGH, I'm just so pissed off right now I need to just get my mind off it... think of happier times.

Last week we had dinner with Steve and his girlfriend Linda, Jennifer and her boyfriend Brian and it was so much fun. Of course, everyone has to tease me about my obsession with Justin Guarini - Dante was telling them how I told him: I always thought that whoever I dated in the future would have to deal with Dante being a huge part of my life but if I met/dated Justin, I couldn't talk to Dante anymore because I wouldn't want to hurt Justin. :) (He's so goofy and carefree and innocent and fun - I can't hurt him like that!!) and then he told them about how I have that mix CD in my car and whenever Justin's song came on, I'd tell him each time, "I think this is Justin..." (you guys - he was totally exaggerating!! I'm not that bad!) The funny part was, after dinner when we got into the car, he turned the CD to one of the Justin songs!! There was another song playing and he switched it to 'Be a Heartbreaker'.

Wow - I just realized, last week was just like a vacation or something... I saw/went out with almost all my friends, my boss was gone, Dante and I were having a good time, etc. etc. Now things are back to normal - boss back, drama with Dante, and I'm back to spending most of my evenings at home with nothing to do.

I was watching "It's Good to Be... Brad and Jennifer" last night and their life / spending habits are amazing. Brad Pitt ordered a $75k Mercedes G500 in silver and when it was delivered, he decided he didn't like that color... but Jennifer saw it and she liked it so he gave it to her and ordered another G500, this time in black, for himself. Can you believe that life?? Damn. Oh, and their $20 million paychecks dwindle down to $14 million after paying their agents, managers, business managers, etc... and after taxes its about $6 million net. $6 million!!! One damn movie!

Just got a call from Eileen this morning - she is so pissed off they docked her 2 days pay on our last paycheck that she's as determined as I am to look for another job. Sure she did take her vacation 3 months before her anniversary date (its that thing where after a year of working here, you get one week vacation, after 2 years, 2 weeks, etc) and she took 2 extra days, but when she had her medical problems at the beginning of the year, the managing partner told her to take any time off she needed. Eileen works on straight salary, no OT, and we just finished tax season recently where we had to work 6 days a week... she also stays here until 7:30-8:00 just about every night so she's pissed they didn't just give her those 2 days as goodwill. I know this company will also screw me when I leave - I just know they're not gonna give me my vacation pay even though I've accrued it. I need to leave this company - I've been here a year and a half and they started me on like a high school grad's salary even though I have a BA in Economics from UCLA (not one of those bullshit colleges either) - it was understandable back then because I was just an assistant. After 5-6 months of working here, they gave me a promotion to my current position as business manager because the guy left, but they didn't give me a raise! (Kristi - the roomie who just moved out - was telling me to check the labor laws to see if it is even legal to give a promotion without any raise). I have way more responsibility in this position (I have full responsibility for a couple clients' accounts) as opposed to just doing what the business managers told me to do (file, write checks, make deposits). I think the last assistant Eileen and I had was making the same salary as I was - how screwed up is that?? I guess you can't pay any less than what I'm getting but still - do I have to go in and demand a raise? I've been at this business manager position for a freakin year now. Don't companies give you reviews after like 6 months?

Ok - I just got a call from Stan - he's at the airport in Oregon and he was promising me that when he gets back, his highest priority is to interview, etc... cool, so I shouldn't feel bad about leaving. I told him that I could stay until he found someone new to take over this position and that I was gonna move back home and study for the LSATs or CPAs or something for a couple months. Mona (my old boss, the criminal defense attorney) already looked over my resume and helped me with the wording, style, etc. She is awesome. The problem right now is finding the cover letter Mona helped me on last time. I need to tweek it a little to update it but it was an awesome cover letter. It isn't on my computer at home anymore - I don't know why but I'm assuming it was Dante because he messes everything up so I'll just blame him and I'm probably right - and I found one copy of it when I was cleaning out my room at the old house. I had it in my hand last week when I was moving stuff up from the car to the apartment but now I can't find it!! That was probably the only thing I really needed in all that junk too. Oh well... I'll find a solution...

Shit, what if Stan finds someone before I get another job?? Nothing like the panic factor to get me off my butt and start applying. I could probably work for Jay for a little while until I find something permanent that offers the salary I want. I got hired at this job 5 days after I put together my resume, cover sheet and started faxing them out... I can do it.

A Time to Kill is on right now and I just loved the acting in this movie. Yeah, its a John Grisham novel, its not Oscar material but who cares? This was the first time I saw Matthew McConaughy in action and I was so impressed... his closing statement had me in tears and I heard somewhere that he did this long speech in one take. Ashley Judd is so beautiful in this movie - I'd be jealous of her if I was Naomi or Wynonna cause they're all famous and decent/good looking but she's the prettiest in the family.

I just got home from an afternoon/evening at my parents' house... I'm working on a long journal entry but I just don't feel like doing it right now... maybe after the movie.